Jun. 5th, 2017

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 I had an odd "click" this morning about my father.  One that makes it a bit easier to make sense of him really.  

My father has always complained about his brother (my uncle) being gay by saying "He's handsome.  There were always a lot of girls at school that had crushes on him.  He could have had any of them.  I don't know why he went for men."  My dad literally could not understand why he preferred men when he had numerous women available to him.  It literally did not make sense to him.

My dad has also spent 20-30 years trying to get me to like Metallica.  Actively trying to get me to like Metallica.  When I was a kid and a teenager, he'd play it in the car during long rides (which we did often, as my parents are divorced and he'd drive us the hour ride back and forth every other week).  He still tells me Metallica is good and I should be listening to them.

Similarly, my whole life my father has been trying to make me like steak, particularly London Broil. (I will eat steak cooked a few select ways, but never liked it as just a slab of meat.  Stir-fried okay, but London Broil, yuck.)  He doesn't understand why I don't like it.  It's so good!

I know it sounds silly that it's only clicking now, but I think my father's completely incapable of understanding his tastes are subjective.  Everything has a right and wrong in his world, including what food's good, what music's good, what kind of sexual partners are preferred.  Then if I say I don't like Metallica, then clearly that makes me wrong, as wrong as I would be if I were to say 4+4=5.

Given that...other things start to fall into place with my father.  Like he has trouble understanding and empathizing with the limitations of others, particularly if he doesn't share those limitations.  My dumbass brother's still a dumbass, but it's becoming increasingly obvious he's got some mental health issues (possibly bipolar) and he has fibomalyasa.  My workaholic dad doesn't understand why he can't just buckle down, work 14 hour days, 6 days a week like my dad does and pull himself up by his boot straps.  The fact that he's currently holding down two part-time jobs and roughly holding his own steady, if improvished, existence at the moment is, to my father, more or less the same as him sitting around the house all day doing nothing but accepting handouts.  My father pretty much expects the same workaholic standards from every man (including one that he employees...he does own his own business).  You must understand that my own 9-5 type desk job isn't actual work.  He expects women to stay home and take care of the family...because that's how it works.  And while certainly there's more than a little sexism in that (and how he stresses that the father's the head of the household) in part it's because his world view is clearly right thus everything else must be wrong.

I'm not sure how that changes anything with my interactions with him, but it's certainly put things in more context.
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My husband and I celebrated our 10 year anniversary last Friday.  I'm having a hard time reconciling the fact that I am old enough to be married to someone for that long!  We hired a babysitter and went out to eat, which was great.  I rarely get that kind of alone time with him nowadays, with work and the kids.  It was nice.  We had Thai since it was what we ate on our almost first date.

The garden is slowly getting planted.  We have a quarter acre and around here you can't trust there to be no frost until around June 1st.  Then it's a made rush to get everything in!  So far we've planted: sweet potatoes, corn, broccoli, cauliflower, brussel sprouts, onions, beans, peas, potatoes, arugula, and asparagus.  We also have the garlic that we planted in the fall.  We also have a large container herb garden planted.  We still have much to plant, but we're getting there...if only it would stop raining long enough for us to plant.  I have a small flower garden too.  Many of those plants are bulbs or perennials, but I planeted some other things including giant sunflowers (which I look forward to snacking on).  I want to plant more of those.  I also need to plant my calendula flowers (for beauty and tea) and buy some annuals.  I was thinking this for the border: 

They're miniature snapdragons from here.

In other news, the apple trees are doing well.  It looks like we should have a decent crop this year.  The grapes and wild raspberries are all loaded. :)

EBSCO vendors have been by and have been abnormally aggressive in their sales pitch, uncomfortably so in fact.  Just a warning to all you other librarians out there.  The two that swung by included one of the VPs so I thought that was the reason but my husband saw them a day later, without the VP, and they were still obnoxious.  Would you believe that their VP started lecturing me on how to get more money from my administration?  Unbelievable.  I've gotten several follow up calls.  They're only making me want to call up Proquest. :p


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